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The love in your heart

And the joy in your soul

Their tainted with sadness

As black as coal.

 

The anger, the sadness,

They both need to go.

Forgiveness is needed;

For all to grow.

 

Happiness, gladness

Should rue the day

I am MAD here, too

Such is the way.

 

Forgive one and all;

Reap the fruits of your yields

But if nothing is real;

Must be Strawberry Fields.

I am very sad now;

My soul is incomplete.

This place has no meaning;

Its heart has no beat.

 

To come here is just a chore;

One learned by rote.

There’s no excitement anymore;

No love or love note.

 

The void and vapid dark surroundings;

Remind me of my gloom.

My friend, my soul mate, in times of need

She’s no longer in her room.

 

Her lights are off, her spirit gone;

The room it holds no glow.

Sadness for a life once lived

Is what I’m doomed to know.

 

To me, her soul was music;

Her spirit, a warm summer’s Day.

Her mind was charm and wisdom;

Like A light to guide my way.

 

I grieve for her, I mourn for me;

And the loved ones she left behind.

For they are the one who will never, ever,

Get her out of their minds.

 

So goodbye my friend

I miss you more;

Than mere words can opine.

I pray for you

Please watch over me

We’ll meet again in time.

 

 For when you took your final breathe;

 T’was me, my love, who died a death.

 

I had you on my mind today

 

I had you on my mind today;

Your beauty and your grace.

I had you on my mind today;

Negligee’s trimmed with lace

 

I had you on my mind today;

And the way my heart would smile.

I had you on my mind today;

Chatting with you for a while.

 

I had you in my heart today;

And how my heart did ache.

I had you in my heart today;

Still reeling from its break.

 

I had you in my heart today;

But I can’t take no more.

You left me, alone, abandoned;

In the dark to find the door.

 

I had you in my soul today;

And how my soul did bleed.

T’was on your soul, my dear;

That MY soul did feed.

 

But mind or heart or soul;

It really matters not.

T’was you the one who make the choice;

A friendship you need not.

 

I had you in my eyes today;

And how my tears did flow.

I had you in my eyes today;

Nevermore you to know.

 

And now, my dear, I take my leave;

I bid you fond adieu.

My sadness is that you don’t think of me;

The way I think of you.

When life’s burdens get out of hand;

Always feel loved.

If things don’t happen exactly as planned;

Always feel loved.

 

When the forest you’re in turns dark and black;

Always feel loved.

I’ll be there to find you and lead you back;

Always feel loved.

 

You’ll always s have someone to watch over you;

Always feel loved.

It may be, from afar, that I watch what you do;

Always feel loved.

 

When friends you have don’t understand;

Always feel loved.

You can call on me to lend a hand;

Always feel loved.

 

And if, by chance, our souls should meet;

And our hearts entwine;

Believe me when I say, my dear;

The pleasure’s all been mine.

 

Always feel loved.

 

There once was a maiden

Who I did love, but that would never know.

Her passion was love, desire her life

And she knew the words of Poe.

Now this fine maiden

I came across, one bright and sunny day.

Never thinking that I would meet someone,

Like her, along the way.

A host of golden daffodils;

A pasture green and fair

I traveled the road not trod upon;

And I found her there.

 

She loved with a love;

As fierce as the Sun.; Her smile beaming bright.

The wrongs of the world just seemed to pale

When I was in her light.

 

A life of discord and unlovedness

We made up for; the maiden and me.

No deeper love did Poe have

For his beautiful Annabelle Lee

 

But her pure heart could not be bound

By man or words or fate

Like a Will o’ the Wisp that can’t be caught

She’d disappear and sometimes late.

 

There once was maiden

Who I did know, she touched the inner me.

Its happiness for her I wish

Ah, fleeting intimacy!

 

Run-away Girl

I once knew a girl who was running away
From what? I did not know.
Friends, family, perhaps a marriage
That she could not keep in tow.

Her soul was pure. Her heart was too.
On passion she did feed.
But she lost her way, one cold day;
And how my heart did bleed.

This girl who could inspire;
With words, and love and mind.
Felt betrayed and violated;
By one’s who should be kind.

To me she was charming and happy;
A pure joy to behold
Contentment is life’s nemesis;
And new friends soon grew old.

Like turtles, upon a shore;
When threatened by a foe.
They hibernate into their shells;
And so this girl did go.

So she ran away, that colder day;
Did she look back? I know not.
The burdens of life too hard to bear;
Some memories were left to rot.

I knew a girl who was running away;
And while my soul doth weep
I hope she’s in a better place;
Perhaps tonight she’ll sleep.

You are…the reason for the spring in my step and the smile on my face;

I keep thoughts of you with me through my day.
 

You are…what is pure, right and perfect in this world;

I can think of no other that I feel that way about.
 

You are…my reason for living, laughing, working and loving;

There is joy in just watching you do the things you have to.
 

You are…the reason I wake up early, ready for my day;

Watching you sleep is beauty to behold and poetry come alive.
 

You are… why there are roses, chocolate, jewelry, cards, and kisses;

Holding you, caressing you, loving you-that is my reward at days end.
 

To me, you are…the reason the sun rises and the sun sets;

The moon is jealous of the sun; it does not shine on your loveliness as brightly.
 

You are…the world; everything I’ve ever wanted;

You are…the world; everything I’ve ever needed or desired.
 

You are…my world!

 

I wrote this on 10/02 as morning inspiration. Hope you like it

I'm Stronger Than I know I am



I’m stronger than I know I am
I’m stronger than you know.
Seasons come and so do friends
It’s sad to see them go.

For just when life has dealt me sorrow
When life has dealt me pain;
I’ll hide away in my cocoon
But I’ll appear again.

I’ll have new purpose; and new vigor!
A Strength of heart and mind
I’ll see my way more clearly now
I’ll leave no one behind.

I’m weaker than YOU know I am;
I’m weaker than I think.
My passion drives me to my limit
And often to my brink.

My breaking point is there to see;
Displayed, for one and all
For me recov’ring oftens hard
When oftentimes I fall

Has my weakness made me stumble?
Or life, or friends or foes
Perhaps desire is my weakness
At times I do not know

But my strength will lead me on;
My heart will be my light.
I’m stronger than I know I am
My heart will tell me right!

In my quiet frame of mind
I find, that life,
while often crual , is kind
But NOT today! , No not for me!
I find there are two
Where once ther were three.

In my quiet state of bliss
I find myself, not loved,
not missed
But discarded rather, like yesterday's find
Erased and forgotten
From someones mind

In my quiet time of sorrow
I search for feelings
I can borrow
To get me thought my time of pain
And back on
My feet again.

But now there is no quiet time.
There is no laughter
There's no more rhyme.
No more joy of expectations,
suprise gifts,
Exhilerations.

To this I must be content.
And true! For there's no love
Without you.
Only sadness ,and regret
For someone special
I just met.

In my quiet time of pain
I find myself,
With pen, again.
Jotting down my lonely thougts
Of one once special
Than now is lost.

In my quiet time , I see
Without you
There's no more me.

    Today is 9/11/12. The 11th anniversary of the attack on US soil. It should be a day of remembrance. A day of reflection. And while some call it "Patriot's Day" it is not a day for celebration. To many this date still remains a sobering and somer date. Which is good. it is my hope that it stays that way.
    It also a bit eerie as today is a Tuesday and that was the same day of the attacks. At the time of the attack I was working as an overnight store manager for Giant Eagle grocery stores. I got home at 7:30 and turned on the news a few minuts past 9AM . The first.  tower had just been hit. A few minutes later the second was hit, and this time there was news footage of it. (later in the day footage apears of the first tower also)  I was about 8 PM that I turned the TV set off.  The events were that riviting.
    Nearly 3000 died that day  . 3000 needlessly died that Tuesday. Reflecting back on it it is stil hard to believe. The events of this day, 11 years ago, have changed our lives forever.  The nation is not as trusting. Go near a major atrport and see how the liberties you once had there are now gone. Not just the US but the now the world, I believe, looks at terrorism in a whole new light.
    But it's a shame. It's shame that the events of this day will also be forgotten someday. It may take close to 50 years for that to happen, but it will. Let me show you what  I mean.
    The bloodiest day in American history, before these attacks , was the day of the Battle of  Antietam in the Civil War. How many of you remember the date of that battle.? How many remember when V-E day was? Or V-J day? Or when Veteran's Day was Armistice Day, which is what it still should be called. The events of that day only apply to WW 1 ,not all Veterans. Time has a way of erasing from our collective memories those things which are painful to remember.
    But not today. Not just 11 years later. At least not by me. And I hope I wrong aboout these events being forgotten. When I was alot younger the question that was asked a lot was "Do you remember where you were when Kennedy was shot(John)?" Yes, I rememebr where I was. I also rememebr where I was when Bobby was shot at the Ambassabor Hotel. But those are questions of my generations. It been nearly 50 years since the shooting John Kennedy. I can rememebr it as if it happen a few months ago. I will be dead but I hope that in 40 years form from now that you rememebr then events of 9/11/01 and where you WERE!
    Because now it should always be a day of reflection and remembrance.

    Society isn'r perfect! Anyone over the ago of 20 who has paid attention in their life can tell you this. And when you get to me age, in my 50's , you can see the imperfectnees of it all over the place. Don't get wong-I'm not speaking about "how life is unfair" . That is a different issue. And one that youngsters becry a lot. Which leads me to this:
    Social networking sites, this one included, are a mirrow image of society. A microcosm of it. And it's not perfect, a utopia, or the new found nirvana. There are folks on social networking sites that will hurt you, harm you, deface your name and slander you just like in society. I'm not pointing any fingers. I also don't want any who read this-if any do- to come across thinking i am speaking of them. I'm not. I don't know  you well enough as a person.  It just a stated fact.
   There are a lot of serious issues to discuss. This years drought, poverty, unimployment numbers, domestic abuse, etc... But for the majority of folks who come tto this site they come here for an escape from their REAL world. They leave behind who they are in favor of their online persona. And that's one of the true  beauties of social networking. it proves an escape. To some more than that-a refuge. A chance to live out who they WANT TO BE rather than WHO THEY ARE!
   So when I see boards or forums put up on this site saying  I hate how this site all about sex. Or eroticness Or fantsies. It really grinds me. None of would be here were it not for sex. I'm sorry if the bluntness offended anyone.It was not my intention. But my point is that there has been, since the beginning of man's existance, a place for sex in society. Same goes for fantasies, but just a century or two ago if you spoke your fantsies out load you risked being put in an institution or asylum.Or spending a night or two in the "drunk tank" .
   To those who  would believe the above i would kindly suggest to ease up. There is room for serious discussion here. In fact you can find it if you look. Those types of  boards and those types of board alone are all you need to subscribe to. It's social networking,so network as you wish. Everyone has  as much, and perhaps more, freedom to express who they are and how they want to be percieved  here than perhaps any other social networking site. 
    A lot of things said here can't be said on Twitter because of size limitations. Facebook, sure if you want or don't want 300 people to know. My Space of LiveJournal-nope!!! Google + is the only site that comes close. but if you became too erotic, or you posted gore or other questionable material, they would ban you. I've seen that happen to people I know. 
   Thise who want to indulge in eroticness, sexiness, sexual fantsies, etc. then by all means to so. To those who want to discuss the coming elections, Books worth reading, world culture then by all means do so.  There  is enough  room here for serious discussion.but there is also room for topics that are less than serious. Be respectful and mindful ofthers and stop with "I hate how this site site has become all about xxxxxxx..
    Those coments are what I would expect from a 15 year old!